Thanks for your kindness Frank ! It's strange that I tune in today,and find the board in a state of rebirth, after so long a run. Hell, even Jay Leno's givin up the ghost these days. It is only,the next stage of evolution.
My thanks to Simon and the mods for putting up with my venting and sensitivities. I feel I have done a lot of healing here. That in part,is why I have been scarce lately. In self reflection, my own recorded words on the board,show this.
It is nice that a few folks remember the music thread,rather than the rants. They were necessary however. Many have extended their hand in freindship and I have backed away, or gently faded. I want those folks to know, that it is not personal. It never was. I love you all. I still need some work, but at least I feel more human now, than ever before.
It's funny but among the many intellects, the fellow that finally effected my phyche, was AK Jeff. It was a simple pm, he sent me. Five words. " We are on your side.' Others have shown their support to whom I am very grateful, but for some reason after Jeff said that, a burden was lifted off me and I started to post less. It was what I really needed to hear. A simple Pm by Burn also had an impact. Simple and Burn is an Oxymoron by the way, but this simplicity seems to have a great impact. I'm still digesting it.
To all those I consider freinds, I offer my sincererest apologies for dropping off the map. These are folks I have corresponded with and then vanished. Crumpy, Guest with questions, Spaznik, Truthseeker, JexW, RAF, Ms Mc D, Skully. Of these afformentioned only two know my story fully.
At first, when i came to the board, I didn't want anyone to know. Letting one person know was safe. Frankly, I didn't really come here to socialize, but to heal. Being understood was more important to me. After wailing for so long and venting it was Jeffs words, The " We" part that finally sunk into my head. This is significant because the "we" that I knew publicly otracized me. Now there are other folks that matter more. I am not saying I have become perfect. Far from it, we all carry baggage to some extent,but I feel I must evolve, just as this board is doing, through good times and bad. Lets hope the core of what made this board great, remains in tact, in some other forum. Who knows what the future will bring!
TYRONE